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This was the best birthday I ever had!!

I just had such a great weekend!

I got lots of my own alcohol, and shot glasses, and well, stuff you need when you turn 21… and then I also got a pink birthday cake from Lorissa! Which was great, i had my tiara on all day also! Oh! And i went out to dinner at my favorite place with my parents, and i threw up when I got home… which is gross to think about while i have my oatmeal this morning…

yeah…

But it was the best birthday ever!

I had a great year. this past year was much better than the year before.

I really feel like I’m going places, and growing up, even if Ben is helping me. I couldn’t do it alone. I could never go back to school if Ben didn’t keep remnding me how great my life could be- no matter how bad I wanted it. And thanks to ben I learned that my money can work for me.

I watch Mind Freak starring Criss Angel every week because he is living proof that if you work hard and stay focused your dreams come true. I guess you wouldn’t believe that my role model is Jenna Jameson for the same reason. (Not paris hilton!!!) I would never ever want to be a porn star, but she did whatever she had to do to make her dreams come true. She knew how she wanted to live; and she’s living that way. She’s a really smart business woman. And thats what I want to be.

Of course I understand that just watching these people isn’t enough to make miracles happen- but they are my inspiration… Two very cool people.

However, My biggest inspiration that I could never compare to faceless celebrities is my Ben Ben. Because he knows exactly how he wants to live and he is doing it. And I can ask for his help day or night. Even when he tells me things i might not want to hear, I listen. I know he is right. He has a lot of smart peple and hard workers in his family, and thats where he gets it. Ben is very good at taking steps to solve problems. Sometimes when i get stressed, i panic. But Ben never does he always has a inovative answer.

Yup i could never get married, move across the country, go back to school, spend 6 months alone, and have a job without Ben.

So i hope he’s apart of the rest of my birthdays!

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I love driving into Ocean City and looking between the buildings as we drive down coastal Highway. You just get a quick glimpse of the sand and tall grass at the top of the beach. Thats always a relaxing sight for me. But a very exciting on also.

It feels good to walk around in a bathing suit without your shoes, I loved to wake up every morning on the beach and wake up every afternoon by the pool! Dinner (or whatever is leftover from last nights take out) was followed by jumping on the the bus and riding to the end of fenwick island. walking on the board walk was next. where I got to eat ice cream, drink lemonade, and by tons of candy from candy kitchen.

It was good to be home. I felt a bit teary when i was walking out of the condo. And I felt a bit sick when the bus to salisbury turned onto the bridge and I caught that last look between the buildings at the sand and tall grass.

It was a great trip. I wish I was still there. I could spend years at Ocean City and never care about what was off that island! I’d just sit on my roof deck all day with my beach coffee, and If i cant see it from there why should I care about it?

Thats not reality. But it was a great escape.

Speaking of beach coffee… I’m turning 21 on Sunday!!

I’m so excited, I felt like it would never come! I was so sick of being a drag to the rest of my friends because I couldn’t go out where they wanted to be!!

I’m going to be a real adult soon!

I can’t believe I’m going to be 21. I remember turning 7 and I starting writing a will out because I didn’t think I would make it past 13!!

Good thing I did because I totally lost my will!

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Important information you probably dont know about the Pharmacy and your medications.

1. You must present your most up to date Prescription insurance card with a; card name, bin #, PCN #, group #, and ID #. And person code if it exsist. Dont be too worried if you prescription card doesn’t have all that on there. all cards are different!

2. We can only give you what your doctor writes for. that means we cant change the; quanity, strength, drug, or date.

3. Your insurance will not always cover 90 day supplies, sometimes they will cover 60 day supplies, but most likily they will only cover a thirty day supply. They might charge you a higher copay for a larger supply though.

4. It is iileagle for us to dispense a brand name drug unless the doctor signs the prescrition and write “medically nessecary” on it. If they don’t write that on the bottom then we have to give you a generic if one is available…

5. You can request brand, but your insurance maybe not cover it, or they may leave you with a higher copay.

6. We have nothing to do with the copay on your prescriptions. Your insurance company electronically quotes us the price they want you to pay. They give us no reason why you are being charged that either… If you want to know why your copay is what it is, call your insurance company. There is a 1800 # on the back of your card you can dial.

7. Prescriptions are good for a year from the date written. control drugs are only good for 6 months.

8. some insurance’s may require a ‘prior authorization’ before they pay for you prescription. this simply means you need your doctor to contact your insurance company and explain to them that you do need to be on this medication. the insurance then will make their final choice on paying for the medicine or not.

9. you can always pay the cash price for your prescription. “paying Cash” doesn’t litterally mean you can only use cash, it jsut means they we aren’t billing your medicin to an insurance.

10. Most insurances let you order your medications 3 to 5 days early. any sooner than five days and they will not pay for it.

11. if you find yourself completely out of a mediciene because you were taking them differently than the directions said to- for instance you are ‘taking 2 pills a day’, rather then the ‘one pill a day’ you were orginally prescribed- and you reorder your medicine only to find out your insurance thinks it’s too soon to pay for the medicine again, you can still pay cash for the pills you need. But talk to your doctor and get a presription with new instructions for two a day so your insurance knows they need to cover more pills for you.

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A couple years ago I honestly was so angry my grandfather died that i just said “I dont care if they find a cure, it’s too late, if we wanted to stop diabetic problems, we’d work harder to get the answers.” I was very upset my grandfather died. And my whole life up until that point when i was 16 he was sick. and in pain. You wouldn’t know it the way he carried himself and still helped others. I can not think of one moment in his life he had a selfish motive.

He gave to everyone! The rich, the poor. If they wanted something, he helped them. He didn’t want to see anyone be unhappy.

Even when he had to go to the hospital he still sat in his bed and listened to the nurses and made balloon animals for everyone in the hospital.

everyone love Jerome Patrick (JP) Hannon

When he started to loose his vision I started to shy away from him because i didn’t want to admit he was sick. I wish I hadn’t.

He was my best male role model. And I didn’t want to loose him. I cried for years when he died until my grandmother pointed out “He is still alive in our hearts, and he isn’t sick anymore… he isn’t hurting, thats what is most important.” That made me feel better.

And a couple months ago I had a dream that he came to see me from heaven and at first I was scared because i’m scared of ghost, but when I saw him I was so happy, and we just sat in my grandmother’s bed (Because that is where he told me bedtime stories about “Dogs In Space”) and I told him everything about my life. About my money, my school I want to attend, Ben, my job… He seemed really proud, but eventually that dream ended.

I like to believe that was more than A dream.

I haven’t cried about him being gone for along time. but recently, since i’ve been engaged; it hit me he wouldn’t be there. I’m very upset that he couldn’t hang on four more years for me. I was so special to him, but he’s gone and he wont be at my wedding.

I guess I dont really wish he could have suffered four more years to be here one more day, but I still wish he would be. I wish he would have just got better and lived to see my kids.

Donating to help a cause is good. It’s a very easy thing to do, as long as some dumb company isn’t getting you to buy something to make a 20% donantion off of what you purchase.

If you are going to donate 20% at least fill the other 80% with human contact. And enjoy the time you have wth your family and friends, because you can’t get it back. and chances are, when they are in heaven, they are going to tell God that you came over and watched tv for an hour, before they mention you bought a pink breast cancer awareness bracelet.

ps> I dont really want anyone to stop research on any disease or condition… I was just very upset when he died. And very upset he couldn’t be saved. I really loved him.

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I lost my password… so not much got done here in August!

Hmm… Whats new? I had two bridal showers… one here and one in Maryland… I got rid of tons of stuff… and i got fitted for my dress…

They wrapped my wedding dress around me so tight that if I gain one pound it is not going to fit… oddly enough I think I’ve lsot weight since then… which doesn’t help either… I should have kept better track of myself when all that was going on… oh well…

Oh! I decided what i want my cake to look like… I just have to pick out flavors!

I got addicted to the show Army wives… but they had their season finale last week! And House wont be on again until Sept 25th! What am i going to watch until then?

On a great note my last day of work is in 18 days! WOO HOO! I never saw the end of that coming! I can’t freaking wait!!

Trust me, I love my job! But I cant wait to take my vacation hours and not get up early, work 12 hour days, talk to angry people who yell at me about their too high copays, stand at register all day long, and count to thirty four hundred times a day!

ahhh… I cant wait!

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